Monday, November 29, 2010

in this case, no news is not good news.

here we are at the start of week seven in what was estimated to be a 4-6 week wait.

do i know what's going on?

nope.

have we heard anything from the korean ministry?

nope.

should we have heard some news by now?

yes.

is it sending me over the edge?

absolutely, positively, one hundred percent YES.


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i heard from our specialist at our US agency today and they informed me that as of monday in korea, our paperwork was *still* in the ministry. our korean agency will be speaking with the program director at our US agency again tomorrow evening. hopefully, by wednesday, we'll have some concrete answers.

until then, i'm just barely holding it together. i've been snippy and emotional and impatient and scatter-brained. i know i've said again and again that this wait has been hard, but this part? this last leg?

it's the pits.

i'll be back when i have news to share. hopefully my next post will be on the extreme other end of the emotional spectrum.

holding on to some truth...

do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
~phillipians 4:6

28 do you not know?
have you not heard?
the Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and His understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
30 even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
they will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

~isaiah 40:28-31

32 comments:

  1. hugs, grace. praying for you and for that TC to come soon!

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  2. it is the PITS dear friend. i am on the edge of my seat...waiting for your next e-mail!

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  3. Oh Grace, this was *not* the post I was hoping to read today! I'm all teary and upset for you, I can't even imagine how you must be feeling. Hugs, friend, hugs. Please know I'm wishing and hoping and praying for you...

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  4. I'm sorry, friend. Stay in the Word or else you really will go over the edge. Believing for good news for you.

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  5. I'm so sorry, Grace. I cannot imagine how you are feeling. It is so hard to understand why things have to be SO hard. I'm praying you will hear something this week and that your heart and mind will know and feel God's grace and strength while you wait!

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  6. I'm so sorry, Grace. This just sounds so tough. Praying for you and thinking of you this week. And hoping very very hard that you get good news SOON.

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  7. i wish i had some comforting words to make you feel better. i am so sorry that it is taking so long. saying a prayer for you tonight for some very good news very very soon!

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  8. I'm sorry Grace. That really sucks, and I know that nothing will help until you hear some good news. Know that I will be praying in the meantime...

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  9. I am so sorry Grace. This is not fair.

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  10. Waiting with you . . . and saying a prayer.

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  11. Nine months is too long to hold your sweet boy. I think I would have camped out in front of the agency if has been 7 weeks since I heard anything. Those are wonderful verses. I hope they give you some comfort. Big (Hugs)) and prayers for you my friend!

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  12. Oh girl... I'm so sorry.
    Whenever the wait was longer for us than predicted, I often thought of people who compare adoption to a pregnancy, and I'd get so mad b/c when you're pregnant and overdue like this, THEY INDUCE YOU. But in adoption, it feels like all the people that CAN actually do something just shrug their shoulders and give you blank stares. It is SOOOO frustrating.
    All I can say is I'm sorry, do whatever it takes to get through it, and we're here for you!

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  13. pits indeed. praying that you hear good news soon...

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  14. Clinging to Phil. 4:6 for you. Hang in there!
    Xoxo

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  15. Ugh. So, so sorry to hear this. How frustrating!

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  16. yuck, just yuck! Thoughts and Prayers!

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  17. hi darlin. FIGHTING! :) the choi fam is in our prayers ...

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  18. i'm ready to go over the edge with you...this is the pits indeed. hang in there! i look forward to the next happy post. in the meantime - my thoughts and prayers to you!!

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  19. Oh sweet friend I don't know how you can be such an encourager to me while waiting it out yourself. It is so much harder for you, knowing who your little boy is and where he is and everything...ugh, so frustrating. Praying daily!

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  20. Hi Grace,
    I've been following your blog. I'm in the last EP group for Eastern too. My agency doesn't have any news either. All I can say is I am feeling everything that you write right there along with you. I never, never thought it would take this long. I keep praying...C

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  21. this is the pits, dear friend. praying so hard.

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  22. oh grace...praying for you. hold onto the Word...when you can't hold onto anything else.

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  23. So sorry there is still no news. Even though my wait was much shorter, the end of it was hard.
    This is when your faith really kicks into high gear, glad you found some peace in the Bible.

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  24. My dear friend, I'm so sorry that EP is taking so long. You know that I'm right there with you in every single respect. We'll get that coffee in Seoul together soon. Praying for you and for all of us in the batch!

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  25. I'm so sorry, Grace. There is nothing good about this news. I know how hard this is. It absolutely STINKS! All I can say is I'm thinking of you and KNOW you will have your son in your arms soon. Very Soon. xoxo

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  26. it is the pits - its especially hard coming off a holiday weekend.

    if there is anything remotely positive to take from your "non-update", its that someone at your agency is not only going to check w/the mininstry, but also get back to you soon. not all agencies are willing/able to do that.

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  27. i'm so sorry girl. i wish i had better words to offer but there really isn't much to say. i'm thinking of you and praying for you and the husband. i will continue to look forward to your posts in hope of some news- any news even!!!

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  28. Glad they are looking into things and so sorry you are stuck in this awful black hole of waiting. {{{hugs}}}

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  29. Grace,

    This just does not seem fair. Know I am thinking of you daily and checking your blog first thing...in hopes for some good news...and soon!

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  30. Grace, I was hoping to see different news on your blog after the holiday week. I know you were praying for that too. This is so disappointing. There is nothing that is going to make you feel better about this, just know we are all thinking about you and I know how this feels. It is horrible and painful and you just want to crawl into a little hole and not wake up until it's time to get your son. I am hoping and praying that call comes soon, Grace. Hugs.

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  31. Grace, I'm saying prayers for you guys. You're right, waiting is hard, but when things take longer (especially this part) than they are supposed to, it sucks. Hang in there. I can't wait until there is good news to share.

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  32. still waiting with you. Hope you are still holding on - dig in your nails!

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